寫給自己︱Lionel.

前些天在豆瓣上推荐了这个话题，《Blogbus回来了，却神经了》，并作附注【我说我blog日志页数怎么从52页减为48页了，原来多篇文章被系统加锁隐藏了，进入后台找到了这些惨遭蹂躏的文章，心里很是愤然，what a government！what a censorship！冲着这点，大伙一起努力移民去吧！！！】，随后向bus客服反映情况并要求解锁，我还是买了他们VIP服务的客户呢，可几天过去了还是没有消息，哎，我就想不通了，这十几篇文章到底有什么问题，现在这里贴上标题并附加链接（幸亏有些在sina上还有镜像），sina审核都没这么严，一向开风气之先的bus经过前阵子被封之事件看来已是患上了相当之深的恐共症，sigh！

1, Back from shenzhen，

2，《照片补发》

3，《努尔古丽》

4，《我的英语四六级》，

5，《忙里偷闲更新下...》，

6，《克林顿的本科时代》，

7，《涩涩女的校园漫画》，

8，《写在我的22周岁》，

9，《我已经习惯了“二面”被刷。。。》

10，《几个老外的中文博客》

11，《克林顿的苏联之行》，

12，《一句话，一本书（附一篇以前写的文章）》，

13，《寻找切-格瓦拉》，

14，《从这个角度，我可以看到南湖》，

15，Sth about WHUT ，

16，《夜游神》，

17，《哪张更有感觉》

I have two suits, the prices of which may be well over 1000RMB, but they were bought by my sister as gifts for me. The most expensive clothes that I buy myself till last month is a Jack & Jones coat , which I bought in zhuhai department store last lunar year, at the price of ￥640. I still remember the original price of that J&J coat, ￥799, the department store was then offering 20% off, and I’ll never forget how much I liked that coat at first sight and what a long time I hesitated to decide to buy it.

Almost one year apart, I made a new record during the one week stay in Hong Kong last month. I bought an izzue coat at the discounted price of 1200HKD, which in RMB is a little over 1000. I had never bought clothes worth more than 1000RMB before, but that night at the I.T & i.t shop in Mong kok’s Sai Yeung Choi Street changed this. The shop was offering “1 item full price/ 3 items 40% off” policy, so although I picked up the coat in a short time I spent much longer time on choosing two more items. Turned out it was quite headache-causing, nearly an hour passed, I finally decided on a T-shirt and a sweater. It was almost 1 A.M then, I rushed to pay for the three carefully selected stuff and cheerfully left the shop with big bags. On the way to my cheap night-spending place, I decided to wear the new coat on a whim. So I did, and then I realized the coat may be too big for me(strangely enough I tried the coat several times when in the shop and concluded everything’s perfect!). It was sized 3, in Hong Kong standard, which is equal to medium, a size I’m generally ok with. But some clothes are sized bigger/smaller than usual, in my case, it looked like oversized. I happened to see a mirror on one side of the street, and I stood there, looked into the mirror, and confirmed I was right. Then I run to the shop (thank god it was still open), and asked to change for a smaller one. The cashier guy was in no way bothered by me, and did as I wanted. With the 2-sized coat on, I felt so lucky I found out the problem so early and instantly, what if I carried the oversized coat in the bag to Shenzhen the next day? I just saved so much trouble and possible regret by capriciously having the coat on down the street!:-)

I’ll cherish these two coats. The J&J one is the first priciest clothes I bought for myself in my 20+ years of life, using my own earned money in my first job. The izzue one is the most expensive clothes I've bought so far, the shopping experience of which is also the most unforgettable to me (the location, the anecdote, etc). There must be far more pricy clothes I’ll buy in the future, as my wealth accumulates bigger, or as my taste changes better, but I’ll hardly forget the J&J and izzue coats, for they witnessed my growing financial independence and life taste within the first two years after graduation from university. 

Just got a call from laodai, my roommate back in college, and had a long talk with him…

I was kind of embarrassed at first. He used an anonymous number to call me, the moment I answered, he said jokingly he knew it’d work and blamed me a little bit that the previous calls he made by the old number never got answered.

The talk over the phone turned out good anyways. We’re good roomies and buddies on campus, and shared a kinda feeling of connectedness, if it’s appropriate to put it this way. So despite of being connected-less for so long, we still have much to catch up and talk about, in a quite natural and intimate manner. I made all this connected-less situation; in the year of 2009 I became incredibly unwilling to contact those old friends, though sometimes I do miss them a lot. You know what a life I had ever since I came to Shenzhen last April, I admit I enjoyed it, an awful lot, but deep in my heart I’m quite aware it’s wrong, and not supposed to be. This awareness explains why I’m so passive in keeping touch with old friends; I don’t want them to know I’ve been just messy around and not engaged in any serious stuff…

Ignoring phone calls from familiar numbers is way too much impolite, I did this quite many times, though. As for laodai, I still remember one early morning couple of weeks ago, he called me till my ring tone itself stopped, and I just gazed at my cellphone, hesitating and scratching my head. This scene is still vivid to me, laodai’s mention of my unresponsiveness in the beginning of our talk brought me to that morning again and made me feel much more terribly awkward and, sorry. Thankfully laodai expressed his understanding on that:-)

There’re some changes for laodai in the past half year or so. He bought a computer; He was transferred position in the local postal savings bank, from teller to financing commissioner, which both of us think a good transfer. And he came to terms with his girl friend, and said that marriage is probably not far. I was glad to hear this, I still remember their calls in the end of 2008, when I was back in Flextronics Zhuhai, about their quarrel and misunderstanding, and the possible break up. Each of them had his/her reasons, and I just listened and gave advice when necessary. I didn’t follow the issue later on, partly ‘cause I didn’t wanna be meddlesome, but largely ‘cause I left Zhuhai soon and began my messy life in Shenzhen.

Hope there’ll be changes for me after the spring festival, too. I guess I can’t afford to live like this soon, my personal financial situation is getting worse and worse, esp after the one week trip in Hong Kong last December.

Today is my 24th lunar birthday. Without laodai’s call just now, i’d probably write nothing, not to mention the birthday stuff. Anyway, I don’t think the day is special, and I’m not planning any party or celebration things. I become 24 years old today, or according to my hometown’s chronology, today marks I’m already 25. It’s as simple as that, no any other particular meanings...

Just back from zhuhai.

I’ll have a passport soon, in about two weeks my newly-made passport will be express mailed from zhuhai to my place. Thanks to shelly, who came to shenzhen to spend the solar new year here, it’s her going back to zhuhai yesterday that made me decide to go with her and speed up my application for the long dreamed passport. Thanks also go to alex, who borrowed my household register from company HR for me during work and helped me save much trouble and many procedures; who treated me two delicious meals and shared his room for my one night in zhuhai, during which we had lots of good talks. And Yvette, thanks to her as well, for accompanying us eating at supper yesterday and talking so happily about so many things…

This blog has been badly maintained in the past half year or so. I still remember I’d even write the most trivial things onto my blog before, but now I just let almost everything passing without any record, some of which are actually quite worthy of being taken noted, like the relocation from Zhuhai to Shenzhen, the long time of idleness and messing around, the new job and the new friends, the train back home to attend the funeral of my god-brother, the visits of my dear sister and some good old friends back in university & flextronics(zhuhai) to my place, the trip to Beijing, Shanghai and Hong Kong, as well as the new interests in and passion for credit card and stock investment stuffs etc.

I should have felt obliged to write, right?

Having been unforgivably lazy for quite a long time, I know for sure it's not the right way to be. The year 2009 is about to go, in the new year of 2010 I hope everything can change.